And I can’t explain my thoughts, of realistic memories, that guided me through sanity


I was drowning at the bottom of the sea and when I finally rose my head above water, you were my first gasp of fresh air

The skies opened, a warm light shone through, and my world stopped in its tracks

When you worked your way into my lungs and let out your first breath, it wasn't to cry, but to sing



(I can’t explain my thoughts )
Here I sit at the end of the oceans waves
(Of realistic memories)
The sandy shores are reminiscent of nevermore, because every grain represents every pain that I've felt in this hollow shell that's been bored.
(That guided me through sanity)
A lovers remorse, a course that I must walk along and scream upon until my voice grows coarse.
(I can’t explain my thoughts )
But of course, just like the grains of sand on this beach, the realization of my insignificance, and the significance of everything happening reminds me that I should feel no remorse.
(Of realistic memories)
My head is being forced below water
(That guided me through sanity)
This harsh liquid’s filling my body leaving me with the inability to breath
But in the end every inferno turns to ash
And in that ash lays my former self


I see you standing behind me in every mirror's reflection but you're just a ghost of lovers past and darling I still haven't gotten over how you've moved on so fast
Empty corridors bare that same silence you gave me.
You said we moved at too quick a pace, but through every adversity we faced I would never let our love be disgraced

I've always had an addictive personality and maybe that's why I was so addicted to you.
Because when our arms crossed and our hearts connected my body just asked for more
And darling you're leaving me so psychotic it's leading me to narcotics
But it's no use, because no drug will get me as high as I felt with you.

I can’t explain my thoughts, of realistic memories, that guided me through sanity, but now you're gone. Every day I bloom, awakened and in a different bed, ever since you left

I still think about you every night
Even when at the end of the day all we would do is fight
You've left me feeling hopeless and homeless
And through all of this stress and distress that you've caused me I still find a way to imagine you alongside me

It's taken quite a bit of time for me to heal
Because all of this still doesn't feel real
And darling you've moved on so fast that it seems you truly knew this would never last
I have your voice embedded in my skull with faint whispers traveling through my bones

I've been left feeling so lost
You taught me what it sounds like when water sang fire

Last day I bloomed, awakened and I'm different

I can’t explain my thoughts, of realistic memories, that guided me through sanity, and now you're gone.